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So welcome to my world... where it is a constant battle between my love for food and a desire to have a body like Michelle Keegan. I spend 3-5 days a week working out to try and attain a 'desirable' beach body, whilst fighting the constant urges that come with having the most ridiculously sweet tooth.

 

I absolutely adore chocolate muffins with ice-cream from Supermacs (see I am a country girl at heart), I will happily gulp through one on a Tuesday night and then go to TRX training at 7am on Wednesday and literally work my ass off to get rid of the muffin top that is there only because of habits like these. Pretty ridiculous right?

On paper I am pretty healthy, I go to the gym regularly and my meals usually consist of breakfast smoothies, salmon/turkey and salad for lunch and sweet potatoes, vegetables and some form of meat for my dinner. I keep my 3 main meals a day pretty clean and even my snacks in-between are either corn cakes with organic peanut butter and fruit, or something pretty unsinful. But then Friday arrives and I am like a food junkie who has been kept deprived since last Sunday night and all hell breaks loose! Chinese, wine, crisps, chocolate, there's no stopping me! 

I made a poor attempt at cutting  out chocolate for lent this year

Being a size 8-10 I am not saying I am overweight by any means, but like most women I am never satisfied by the way I look.

For example, last Sunday I had toast with peanut butter and banana for breakfast, followed by popcorn in the cinema, then McDonalds, and then a Sunday roast, with some mini Crunchies thrown in for good measure! And this could be a regular weekend occurrence. That's why I am starting to believe that abstinence is the only way forward, if I don't taste it I won't want more. Maybe I am just a glutton for punishment, I actually love TRX and Spinning classes, and the feeling you get afterwards is amazing.

I really really do want a stomach like Cheryl Cole, but sometimes food tastes better. I mean, whoever said that nothing tastes better than skinny feels has never eaten a bag of chocolate mini eggs (whilst supposed to be off chocolate for lent!)

But I just have a weakness when it comes to food, I need to learn to say NO.. Is this something you can train yourself to do, or just a curse that you have to live with?

Another example, I spent two hours on Tuesday evening cooking 'clean' meals for the week - chickpea burgers, sweet potato wedges and butternut squash & sweet potato soup. I then went to Lidl and did a healthy shop for the week, whilst also throwing in a couple of packets of cookies and dairy milk bars, oh and a MaltEaster bar 'as a treat' for spending so long cooking. But instead of eating it, I put it in the cupboard and went for a late night run.

I did however, come in last night and eat that said MaltEaster bar, followed by a couple of cookies and half a share bag of Sea Salt and Balsamic Vinegar crisps that Andy had left lying on the coffee table.

      
So I guess that word abstinence comes in again, if I don't eat it I won't want more. As I said, it is a constant battle with myself and I just hope someday the better half of me, the side of my brain with willpower and strength wins...

       

         Clean VS. Delicious